I have always been a creative, observant person. Not so much quiet as I do have quite a mouth on me, but very introspective. I watch. Lately, I'm not so keen on what I see when I watch, so I turn to my own mind to distract me from the mundanity of human interaction.
So, when I find something in the human world that is pleasantly distracting, I tend to latch on with quite a forceful grip. I have found such an object, and were that object within actual physical grasp, it just might be in danger of losing itself to me. I can be quite formidable when indulging my usually dormant selfish tendencies. It also helps that I have recently had a profound boost of self assurance. So, the object of my desire might just be in real peril of being taken away from it's current natural environment which would be blissful for us, but not so much for those I take it away from, as I would most likely have a great deal of difficulty returning it.
On the rare occassion that I do give into my "darker" side, I am quite voracious, but then, since it does happen so rarely, I do allow myself some latitude. After all, we all have a dark side, and if this is as dark as mine gets, its not such a bad thing, as I do have a lot to offer and most that "fall under my spell" have little to complain about as my dark side is more interested in pleasure for parties involved, not pain.
Oh well, I am what I am and should I ever be fortunate enough to hold the object of my affection for any length of time, there would be no complaint. No, I am very rarely quite so egotistical as this may seem, but every once in a while, {oh who am I kidding, it's only happened one other time, and he is quite blissfully happy, just ask him}, I just have to feel it and let it take over for a bit.
Strangely enough, I feel quite sure, impossible as it may seem, that at some point I will interact with the object of my current affectionate obsession. I'm not quite sure why, exactly, but we shall see. Besides, it is high time my passion is allowed to express it self, at least once more, and I can think of no one better or more qualified to experience it than my current object of desire, as I am EXTREMELY picky and have very high standards, quite difficult for most to live up to, including myself on regular occassion, but I never give up hope. Don't you wish you were the one? 
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